Too much time on my hands

Is it any wonder, I’ve got too much (clap, clap) time on my hands
and it’s ticking away at my sanity
I’ve got too much (clap, clap) time on my hands
it’s hard to believe such a calamity
I’ve got too much time on my hands
and it’s ticking away-ticking away from me
Too much time on my hands T-T-T-T-T-T-T too much time on my hands

How in the heck did Styx know back in 1981 that the lyrics to this song would have such significant relevance to my life in 2010? Well, actually I’m no jet-fuel genius…………whatever that is, and I can’t solve all the world problems without even thinking, but, I am beginning to wonder if I’ve got too much (clap, clap) time on my hands? Sorry, the tune is so catchy that I just can’t seem stop myself from doing that. And it would be such a calamity if the loooong days I’ve endured in order to have a 3 day work week was all done in vein! After all, I have fought for this time-I’ve suffered for this time, only to come to this?

So now what am I suppose to do?

That darn question is what got me here in the first place. What am I suppose to do? I have been working so hard trying to figure out where I’m going and what I am suppose to be doing, that I have lost sight of the here and now. Maybe its age, but all of a sudden those darn "life clichés" seem relevant, and I actually catch myself saying them! Geesh, I do only have today. How many Monday’s have I lost because I was so focused on what was going to happen Tuesday. But when Tuesday came along, I realized that wasn’t it, why didn't I see the obvious? It wasn’t about Tuesday, so it clearly must be about Wednesday. And so on and so on and so on……

This is very new for me, it will take practice and commitment to not get ahead of myself and stay in the present. Tomorrow I start with no expectations of what I “should” do and just enjoy whatever it is that happens. I have to admit, I am curious to see if my day will feel any different. I'll let ya know!